Friday, March 2, 2018

What Matters

The Northeast Kingdom Wednesday Poets meet
at the Barton Public Library May through October.
When I was in art school, 
the dean of my department 
asked me why I would write poetry?
The audience will be so small, 
she said. 
I didn’t deny her claim. 
I also didn't know what to say to her assertion. 
I kept writing, but short stories which, 
I wasn’t really any good at writing.

When I got back to painting 
(I had been in art school after all:-)), 
I expressed some deep longings of heart and soul
through journey drawings 
in pastel, craypas and oil stick! 
Their stories led me back to church. 
Not the Catholic church of my childhood 
but the Unitarian Universalist - a Protest faith!
Different but similar: 
a community of companions 
traveling together 
remembering the lessons 
we learned in kindergarten: 
hold hands as you cross busy streets 
and sometimes dangerous roads, 
as you bound up joyful hills 
and crawl the low valleys.

Eventually I discovered ministry
which led me back to writing
not poetry but
songs, curricula, prayers, 
sermons, eulogies, blessings 
and even prophetic invocations
(Once at the Malden Chamber of Commerce 
sponsored City Candidates Forum
I reminded the 7 a.m. breakfast crowd
a chaplain to the U.S. Senate looks out at the senators,
and prays not for them, but for the country!)
A small audience no doubt 
but capable of unfathomable reach 
in ripples and on air currents 
altered by pebbles and butterfly wings

we cannot know how
to save the world. (the world will be saved
other than one encounter at a time...)

These days I am happy 
to reach across an aisle to share 
a smile, a hug; 
to pass the peace with the people 
who call a sanctuary their spirit’s home; 
who practice loving one another
then love others we meet in the soup kitchen, 
at the march for black lives, 
in the prayer warriors meeting.

In the Barton Wednesday Poets group, 
I practice the craft that I began 
with my nine year old hands 
when I wrote my first poem about fog. 
It rhymed!
I pay close attention while Sylvia and Adrienne 
encourage eighteen disparate creatives
(Jeannie who speaks the word warm
with a roundness that only a native Vermonter can
and creates comfort with her voice and her eyes)
(Mark who truly saves lives as an EMT
...
to render our tender righteous hearts 
into free form, pantoum, or rhyming couplets;
to carve out 
a poem that one of us will submit 
eleven times until it wins first place 
in that distinguished journal out of Pennsylvania, 
or another poem that astonishes 
our sixty year old peer 
who dares call herself a poet 
as she becomes runner up 
in the St. Johnsbury winter slam!

How big is the audience? 
Anywhere from one 
- the poet herself 
to an unknown many.

What matters, 
I think now, 
is that we wrote what we needed to say. 
And in the writing we came alive 
even to ourselves.

Did that make an impact?
Oh yeah!

Wednesday, February 28, 2018

When someone dies young

I found this heartbreaking beauty,
the poem, When someone dies young,
in Robin Becker's collection,
All-American Girl 
(University of Pittsburgh, 1996),
which I have been reading
as sacred text since 12 January.

For you all, beloveds.

When someone dies young
by Robin Becker

When someone dies young
a glass of water lives
in your grasp like a stream.
The stem of a flower
is a neck you could kiss.
When someone dies young
and you work steadily
at the kitchen table
in a house calmed by music
and animals' breath,
you falter at the future,
preferring the reliable past,
films you see over and over
to feel the inevitable
turning to parable, characters
marching with each viewing
to their doom.
When someone dies young
you want to make love furiously
and forgive yourself.
When someone dies young
the great religions welcome you,
a supplicant with your bowl.
When someone dies young
the mystery of your own
good luck finds a voice
in the bird at the feeder.
The strict moral lesson
of that life's suffering
takes your hand, like a ghost,
and vows companionship
when someone dies young.


Read another of Robin's poems, Hospice, at this blog: How a poem happens


Tuesday, February 27, 2018

To break your heart open, again


for Vickie

Talking to a friend today
via email
about loneliness
remembering
the five months
I spent in Flagstaff, Arizona
before my husband joined me there
as some of the loneliest days of my life.

Trying to stay true to the plan
Hanging in there
I tried to attend all the beauty I could find
that was promised
if we moved 2,552 miles from the only home we'd ever known.

And so it was that I drove
the few miles from our apartment
beneath Mt. Elden
to the flat land
beneath the San Francisco Peaks
to see the sun flowers
everyone was talking about.

And what I found
were not the tall, gangly,
heavy hanging
seed bearers that I expected.
No, instead
a valley of vast yellow delight
that broke
my heart open

in loveliness

in possibility

and on the road
where I turned off route 180
to take pictures

a row of mailboxes
longing for news
from a girl far from home.


Monday, February 26, 2018

Balm for loneliness


Day 7 of the flu
my mind tired
and prone to
negativity...


I hadn't thought yet of loneliness
until I received this poem
in my morning inbox


but yes, there are times
like this one
when

loneliness is

and poetry

is a balm.




The Leaf and the Cloud: A Poem 

by Mary Oliver, excerpt

When loneliness comes stalking, go into the fields, consider
the orderliness of the world. Notice
something you have never noticed before,
like the tambourine sound of the snow-cricket
whose pale green body is no longer than your thumb.
Stare hard at the hummingbird, in the summer rain,
shaking the water-sparks from its wings.
Let grief be your sister, she will wither or not.
Rise up from the stump of sorrow, and be green also,
like the diligent leaves.
A lifetime isn’t long enough for the beauty of this world
and the responsibilities of your life.
Scatter your flowers over the graves, and walk away.
Be good-natured and untidy in your exuberance.
In the glare of your mind, be modest.
And beholden to what is tactile, and thrilling.
Live with the beetle, and the wind.

Photo: JMG, Flagstaff, Autumn, 2014

Saturday, February 24, 2018

Swimming to the other side

day five of the flu
and my guitar beckons

I picked out this tune
yesterday
just to make sure I could still play
and sing
and I can
but in a much lower register (no capo!)
than it is written
or performed
in this video from
Emma's Revolution:

Swimming to the other side
words and music by Pat Humphries

enjoy.


Here's a bonus track. I just realized that Pat wrote this too, Common Thread, which I first learned on Star Island at Religious Education Week circa 1996.


Thursday, February 22, 2018

Bless the world


Digging around in the UUA's worship web collection, I found this chant:

🎼"With our minds and our hearts and our hands, 
may we choose to bless the world."
Elizabeth Norton

Follow this link to listen to the chant ➢ Bless the world

Reminds me of a message I received from my first yoga teacher, Diane Lagadec, owner/operator of the Maha Yoga Center in Bridgewater, MA, on Saturday morning:


“We must not let tragedies  ...  
diminish the light of compassion that burns within our hearts” 
Sakyong Mipham Rinpoche

Follow this link to connect with the center ➣ Maha Yoga Center


How will we continue to bless the world and fuel the light of compassion?

For me, I imagine the answer to the question will be lived into - with singing, witnessing, voting, reaching out to others, writing...

How about for you?

Tuesday, February 20, 2018

We want our children back


Image from Linda Tisdale

This morning
FB offered this mournful song
From Jason Shelton:
(click name to listen)

We want our children back
We want our children back
There are too many
Gone too soon.

Shelton wrote it for the
Fifth anniversary
Of the death of 20 tiny children
Gunned down by a broken young man
Who stormed into their elementary school
To kill anyone he met
He had already killed his mother
He killed himself in the end.

We want our children back
Many gone too soon.

As I hear Jason sing the song
From his piano
Where he ministers beyond the walls
Of just one community
To communities at large
I think of the layers
Of the words’ meaning

We want our children back
Wail mothers and fathers the world over
And for so long

We want our children back
Cry grandmothers and grandfathers
From the slave plantations in the American south

We want our children back
Howl sisters and brothers, cousins
From Chicago, Boston, New York, Los Angeles

We want our children back
Moan spiritual leaders in mosques, temples, and churches
From street corners and in the halls of government

We want our children back
We want our friends back
Scream survivors of yet another massacre

Has it always been this way?
Whether the weapon was a gun, a slap, a punch, a stick, a word?
From tyrant, king, demon-filled soul; father?

In the Hebrew Scriptures, Jeremiah prophesies:
"A voice is heard in Ramah, mourning and great weeping, Rachel weeping for her children and refusing to be comforted, because her children are no more."

And so I wonder,
When and how will we
Mourning and weeping
When and how will we
Refuse to be comforted
Refuse to be quieted
And instead sing and work and demand:

We want our children back
Too many gone too soon

And make it stop!